4.11.2005

Her Kiss was returned with an elbow to the eye

It sucks how things from your past haunt you at times. Like scars that you see in the mirror. I think that some things that I have been through in my life will never go away... they will always hang on and there is nothing I can do to change it. I don't think negatively about myself for those things but I sure wish they weren't there. An example is that I am almost always startled when I am woken by someone else. This morning I was sleeping on my back with my arm over my head. Sharon went to give me a kiss and it startled me... I accidently smacked her right in the eye with my elbow. I hope she hasn't gotten a black eye. I feel terrible about it. She was trembling and I could see the pain in her face. Not a great start for the week. =P

4.01.2005

Fear This!

It's kind fucked up how fear rules peoples lives.

Sometimes we can fear something happening so much that we grow to expect it to happen and it changes our perspective.

It's all cause and affect.

Our perspective can lead us to react in a way that is contrary to our initial goal.

The key is to try and maintain a positive perspective in the face of fear.

If you are always on the lookout for something negative to happen then it's quite possible that you will ultimately cause a negative outcome.

If you are always looking out for the negative in other people then your view of other people will generally be negative.

If you make a habit of looking for negative things then you are conditioning your mind to be negative.

Our subconscious mind is affected through habit... and it's the only way to guage real change in our lives.

If you try and see the positive in life... you will reap positive things because they will be apparent.

Sometimes negative things happen to positive people but real character is formed from staying positive in negative situations.

Life is never perfect... it's always in the grey area and there is nothing we can do to change that.

Positive thinking can add color to a grey life.

I wish I could wave a magic wand and make all of the issues that people have go away... but I can't.